I’m not here. This isn’t happening..
(Zero AI – 100% human created content).
After a week of craziness and inability to edit, say, and post on any social media place, I felt that I must break the silence and the overfilled stress vacuum. What happened in the early hours of last weekend changed the plans of millions of people. The plans for the weekend – the last day of the Sukkot holidays, and the plans for the next week, next month, and for many – changed their plans forever.
Yes, we had plans too. It was the last day of the annual International Film Festival in Haifa. My brother and I had tickets to a movie we liked, additionally we just wanted to relax in the festive atmosphere.
And it was already impossible to believe that just a day ago, i met my friend in Jerusalem and we spent the whole beautiful friday in the Old City. The silent of the city this day was piercingly screaming. Like the old and wize stones of the have seen everything and known a lot walls were silent about something to us.
This day we visited the Church of the Holy Sepulchre, which was under deep construction, still full of the tourists standing in the long line with the goal to touch the Christ’s Tumb. I never saw a tractor or any other vehicle inside the church, so, sure for many of those waiting in this line the look was absolutely surrealistic. On the other hand, Sagrada Família has been under construction for a long time, but the tractor there is not moving between the visitors standing in turn. Just an interesting observation about invisible maintenance, which is never invisible in my country.
And now we are moved to the highest position in world news and the discussions are extremely annoying. Reminds me the the non-stop discussions on the “far” on 24 February 2022 before the Russian invasion of Ukraine. Other countries, other people, other reasons but the same dry, emotionless words with the thousands of lives behind them. But for them, these lives are just numbers with some more “0” at the end.
But in the meantime, being under heavy rocket attack is become a usual part of today’s life. The only attack on the center counts that the day was calmer than usual. (I don’t talk about the southern close to the border parts, which are under constant fire). And there is such a persistent feeling that our authorities are doing nothing. But nothing, without including their usual political games. Ordinary people gather in organized groups and prepare food and collect clothes and housewares for those who are left homeless and foodless. Unbelievable but not unexpected.
But, I should note, that also something amazing happened to me during these long already 8 days of craziness. I got tons of the warm messages and calls from my friends living in different countries around the world. A very interesting fact, is that most of these friends I know from the not existing Google Plus platform. Thank you to all you, my friends. I’m still alive and hope to continue answering your messages long time.
And, i’m really sorry about the “plagiat”. I took the words from one of my favorite Radiohead songs as the title for this post. Can find something explaining my feeling these days better then Thom said.
THE BRIGHT PART – JERUSALEM.
THE DARK PART – EVERYWHERE AROUND ME.
My dearest Victor, I’ve actually been worried about you and your brother. There are just no words for the horrific of times. I’ve been watching you for over 11 years, my friend. My heart and soul to you on your new year’s. May you stay safe, your family hold tight!
Regards,
Your friend,
Mary Cadigan. Hugs and kisses🙏🏻
Hey Mary. So happy to hear from you. We are ok and hope that the situation will be better soon and less escalated. The world is going in this dangerous and wrong way of the whole aggression and hatred to each other. ;-( I hope that you’re doing well at your side of the world. Mary.
I wish you and your loved ones all the best, Victor. I fail to find proper words for these circumstances and what is happening. Here in the West we try to defend the freedom of speech without realizing that words comes with responsibility too. Without understanding the situation people feel te urge to pick a side. Since it is so complex and there already has been so much bloodshed, I cry for the fact that so many, especially young, people lost their innocence and take grief and pain to the next generations.
Stay safe,
Wouter
Thank you Wouter. You’re so right and it’s not about the side. Young people lost their lives for the money of those who sit on the top and direct the masses against each other. Hope you’re doing well.
I’m glad to hear from you, Victor; I’m also keeping contact with another friend who lives in Haifa, and I hope this horrible nightmare will stop sooner rather than later. Thinking of you and sending even if just a little positive energy. Please keep posting, so we know you are alright.
Thank you for the energy Crina. indeed, Haifa is a very easy target for the northern neighbours. Hope that the escalation will stop soon.
So glad to hear from you, and that you’re doing well, my friend.
Thank you Matt.. I hope for the best
Don’t we all.
Worries up here too.
Relieved your words received. I was wondering if all was well for you and your family.
Hopefully one day people find peace in their hearts, removed the hatred they feel among each-other. This world is big enough for all of us.
Pleased I was to read your words, a sign of live.
Stay safe!
Aline
Thank you Aline. So right said – this world is big enough.
Hey Vic… oh wow! So good to hear from you, of course I thought of you in the last days. It’s absolutely crazy what happened and still happens.
Hope there will be soon a good solution for the (neverending) conflict, so many people have to suffer on both sides… I’ve read a lot of history of Israel now, I did not know much about… stay safe over there my friend!
Hey Chris. Huge thank you ! Im not too active on social media sites, even still taking images of the actuality around me. I just hope that all they know to find another solution, which is not including killing and hurting.
yes we just hope for the best 🙏 never give up hope!!
This is a crazy, sad world. Stay safe
Thank you. Doing my best for this !
Thanks for your words and photo’s; take care!
Thank you for your words.
Was thinking about you these days, Victor. We all think of you. I am glad to see you are healthy and safe. Keep us informed. I wish you from the heart strength so you can get through this sad situation. You are not alone.
Hey Alina. Thank you for taking a read. I will try to publish more posts with kinda news about the situation. Hope to photograph the new images as well.
Victor, glad you are safe! Our trip to Israel scheduled for October 23, has been cancelled. A small loss for us compared to the many losses others have suffered. Praying for your safety. Thanks for the photos.
Wow Marland. Happy that you were not here when the event happened. Sad that you need to cancel the visit. I will post much more from this visit in Jerusalem soon. I just can’t find myself posting these images right these days. I hope you will come later.
I surely will.
I’m glad that you are safe. Be well and take care. The world is a strange and awful place sometimes.
Yes the duality in action. I really dont want to start the political discussions here, but as the anti corrupted and right-wing government active protester i know exactly where are the roots of the current complicated situation..Thank you for the kind words
I was so pleased to hear from you the other day! Humanity has not changed in the 6,000 years or so of recorded history. Shalom!
Indeed. Humanity just moved forward in the ways of killing massively and creatively.
Thank you Steve for taking a look and writing your kind words.
I hope for safe outcomes for you and for those you care about.
Thank you Jim There are non-stop booms all evening today. By the map of the events these explosions were around 20-30 km from here but my house was shaking.
Apreciei imenso este seu desabafo visual, de um autor que muito admiro, Victor Bezrukov, inibo-me de acrescentar mais qualquer palavra, pois, dizes tudo quando referes que todo o artigo é um conteúdo 100% humano, zero I.A.. Sente-se o paradoxo, aprisionados por não nos considerarem dignos de voar. Enfim, faço votos para que tu e a tua família consigam ultrapassar este momento de uma humanidade moribunda e em breve possamos sorrir juntos.
“I’m not here This isn’t happening.. A huge hug from Porto – Portugal
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After a week of the crazinest and inability to edit, to say and to post in any social media place, i felt that i must break the silence and […]”
Hey Antonio. Thank you very much for taking a look and for the kind words. I hope to stay active here.
I am very sorry about this horrific tragedy and I hope you stay safe, Victor. Take care and thank you for connecting.
Thank you for taking a look Jane. We are still in the middle of the new normal – daily bombing, daily sirens. I don’t see any end of this complicated situation. Bombing is not helping much to find an appropriate solution.
It must be terrifying. I’m so sorry.
hon, read your post with shivers while the early sun peeks over the hills in front of our property and creates long shadows on the fields and our garden. you would so much love this sight. wait, i take a picture and send it to you … damn, i wasn‘t quick enough. a big dark cloud covered the sun and took all the beautiful light. like in „real“. the conflict becomes more and more effective to the whole world and it gets darker and darker for so many people. it‘s a glimpse of light knowing you supported by many people i partly also remember from the google+ times. that‘s fun. was fun. it made bonds for life. while so many others turned their backs so quicky. so quickly they denied, forgot, revisioned … it‘s dark. it‘s distorted like on your photographs that document the feeling so well.
and here is another song quote from a nada surg song that reminds me of the nights back then we spent together online. makes you laugh, i hope:
I look in the mirror / To see what my hair is doing / Is it kind of Skywalker / Or is it kind of stupid?
Hey darling I’m listening to this song right now. It was such a great time of the feeling that the entire world is going to the bright direction and all the shivers and iron curtains started opening for us. A big mistake to think that all the people who are using the internet are automatically nicer and smarter than those who don’t use it. The reality is correcting our misconceptions and putting things in the right places. So from many connections we stayed a few but very strong.
Words escaped. The images tell the story, of holding on to silver linings, to smiles, to beauty and normality. Your pictures paint both bright and dark sides with lots of expression. I hope you can find solace in the act of making them, as part of that normality. My thoughts and worries are with you in these hard times. Take care Victor, be safe.
Thank you very much for the kind words. Unbelievable that we are already month in this. Still we have around 300 kidnapped. Ppl from different countries. There are no traces where they are.
I walked again in TelAviv today. Together with the photos taken during last week will prepare another chronicles post.
What an unbelievably sad drama for them and their loved ones. Thank you Victor for keeping us aware and awake. Paraphrasing a Dutch saying; fair images are often untrue, and true images are seldom fair.